The Worst Anxiety Attack…

…I have EVER had.

Marty got away from his walk the other day. I got a call at work saying that and instantly my body seized – I felt the panic coming but it was more important to focus on finding him. After 25 minutes someone had found him. I got to my dog and wrapped him up in my arms with more relief then anything ever. But with the relief – and end of the adrenaline and panic – my anxiety took over my body. It had no other way out. Marty and I sat on a patch of grass, I wouldn’t let him out of my arms, and I burst into tears. All the anxiety of everything that could have happened and all the ways he could have been hurt took over. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t stop crying, I couldn’t really get up from that spot. I kept my arms around the dog and waited for it to pass. It is by far the WORST anxiety attack of my life – I hope it remains that way.

Marty is fine and happy as ever – the rest of us are a bit worse for the wear.

When Anxiety Has No Where To Go Except…

…out your eyeballs.

I have talked with you all about my issues with anxiety. This morning was a rough one. My main anxiety source is potentially and unintentionally hurting other people (particularly those I love and care for most). Well – I got it in my head that I was definitely going to unintentionally expose my dude to germs. So my anxiety took over and I cloroxed the whole house basically. I scrubbed all the pans with scalding hot water and generally freaked out. Once I had done all that, I just started crying for no other reason then I couldn’t think of another release for my anxiety. It had no other way out of my body then my eyeballs.

Very few people have seen my anxiety get this bad – I can count them on one hand. So I looked around me and I named five things I saw, four things I could touch and feel, three things I could hear, two things I could smell, and one thing I could taste to ground myself. It helped a little. It gave my mind real things to focus on rather then the things running around in my mind. I recommend trying it sometime even if you just need to feel a little more grounded.

A grounding tool for anxiety...
When you need to ground yourself.

Shout out to all my fellow anxiety ridden people and anyone dealing with all the stress in the world today. You aren’t alone friends!

How do you deal with stress and anxiety in the world today? How have you adapted your tools to social distancing and staying home?