Convincing Myself That I Am NOT…

…hungry. Mind over matter.

Lately I have been super hungry most of the time. I don’t know if it’s getting back into my workout routine, coming off holiday eating, or my hormone cycle, but I am hungry almost all the time. The kind of hunger that is really hard to ignore. I am trying to convince my body it isn’t as hungry as it is saying it is because I know I don’t need to consume as much food as it wants me too. I know I should shove it full of vegetables but that isn’t what the hunger wants (who wants vegetables all the time?).

I went through a two week phase were my appetite was very low. It was nice. Now it seems to be making up for lost time. So I am trying to do things to distract myself (like write this post) or work or workout or whatever. I know this denying of the hunger is ultimately what my body needs (especially to keep my weight down) but it seems almost crazy to ignore. My body must need these calories right? Is it hunger or is it just cravings for certain foods? How do you learn the difference? This has a been a lifelong struggle for me. Eating for satisfaction vs. eating for health and energy. Working out comes naturally to me – eating healthy does not. Anyone out there experience this and have ant tips?

The Jury Is Back…

…and jury duty still pretty much sucks.

I had jury duty today and it was boring! Which in a way is a blessing because I really didn’t want to be on a jury again. I was put on a jury at the age of 20 and it was okay but very intimidating at the same time. The idea that I had a big hand in this person’s fate (in this sense) was very scary to me at that age…and this one. Not to mention it is my Saturday and I had to get up earlier and drive farther then if I had gone to work.

So I woke my ass up at 6:20 am on my Saturday, left a warm bed with a hot man, and proceeded to get ready. I was all ready with plenty of time to get there (even packed a snack) when I realize I don’t have my phone. NOOOOOOO! It is not only my main source of entertainment during jury duty but my directions to jury duty. So after 15 minutes of searching the apartment I came up empty. Then I had to resort to waking the hot man up so he can call me so I can find my freakin’ phone. At that point, I know I am going to be late but I am going to need to take the toll road to make it less late so I get to pay to go to jury duty. I make it there, I park, and I run into the courthouse to find that there a bunch of late folks so I feel less bad. So I check in and start streaming my shows using my new airpods, which were key. My phone is older so it doesn’t keep a charge longer then a couple of hours with constant use. So I plugged it into the external battery, that the hot man so thoughtfully charged for me the night before, while still keeping myself entertained because my airpods don’t need to be plugged into the normal charging port.

So they proceed to call people into interviews, etc. and my name isn’t called. We get a two hour lunch and I am wondering what to do with myself. I have been doing really well with my week of cutting calories low and suddenly there’s junk food in the cafeteria calling my name. I ate Cheetohs and grilled cheese and fries before we were dismissed. I am thankful for the dismissal before traffic got bad but it was so boring. I was going out of my mind a little bit. I know that jury duty is an important civic duty and I am willing to do so, that doesn’t make it suck any less. Man this being an adult crap is overrated.

The whole time I was in jury duty I kept flashing back to the sex and the city episode when Carrie has jury duty. “As far as I’m concerned, before 9:00 am every body’s guilty” or something along those lines. It was funny when I watched it, but seemed really true at 7:45 am being late and stuck in traffic. Have any TV moments ever directly correlated to what’s happening in your life?