…Divorced, Beheaded, Survived.”
I am newly into the soundtrack for Six The Musical. Who hasn’t been a bit fascinated by Henry the 8th and all of his wives? This is an interesting way of telling the story without Henry’s perspective. It is history with a flare of the modern. I am really enjoying it and recommend you give it a listen.
…from Jamie’s perspective with Kathy’s role being played by my work place.
For those who haven’t seen it, The Last Five Years is a great musical that is about a five years of a relationship told from the perspective of the man and woman living it. Jamie, the man tells his story from start to finish and Kathy, the woman tells her story from finish to start. They are telling two different versions of the same story. That doesn’t mean that either version is wrong or false, they are just different. Their love starts strong and hopeful and their lives just grow apart and their love changes. I don’t want to say it fades, it just doesn’t work together anymore. It was also made into a movie with Anna Kendrick and Jeremy Jordan (swoon) that is on Netflix. Beautiful and worth a watch.
So what does this have to do with my work and I’s relationship — a lot turns out. I started working at my current employer five years ago today. I am excited and hopeful about the job and I felt welcomed and that folks were excited to have me there. We went on like that for about 3 years. Excited and hopeful. Then me and my work started growing apart. By year five, I barely have any hours and I am clearly not missed by my place of work and honestly, I don’t miss it that much either. I am looking for new job opportunities, having been basically dumped by last one after trying to work it out so hard for what feels like forever. I am sure if I had my work’s perspective it would be just as valid (like in the play).
This parallel came to my mind today and I wanted to put the thought down before I forgot it. It’s not that I hate my place of work or anything. It’s just I don’t want to be somewhere I am so easily deleted and forgotten. Something I invested so much time and effort into, erased. It’s not fun but I learn, I do my best while still there, and I look to the future. All we can do right?
…musical edition! I think it’s what the world needs right now.
Raise You Up/Just Be from Kinky Boots
Ooh ooh Once I was afraid, but then you came along
Put your faith in me and I was challenged to be strong
When I lost my way, you were there to see me through
Now let Lola lend some love and do the same for you! Feed your fire, to take you higher
We’ll light you up like a live wire
Celebrate you, to elevate you,
When you struggle to step, we’ll take a helping hand If you hit the dust
Let me raise you up
When your bubble busts
Let me raise you up
If your glitter rusts
Let me raise you up
(And up)
Raise you up
Raise you up
Raise you up Never put much heart in anything before
You strut into my life and help me go for something more
Now I stand up for myself
Now I stand out from the crowd
Now I’m standing on high heels, if dad could see me now!Feed your fire, to take you higher
We’ll light you up like a live wire
Celebrate you, to elevate you
When you struggle to step, we’ll take a helping hand If you hit the dust
Let me raise you up
When your bubble busts
Let me raise you up
If your glitter rusts
Let me raise you up
(And up)
Raise you up
Raise you up
Raise you upI knew you had it in you
I knew what you could tell
You believed in me
Let me be right for you
Your stumbling days are done
Now we’re walking on air
I was a loose shoe but you need two to make a pair
Wait wait wait wait hold it right there buster
Are you saying you’d like to take me out?
Yes
Are you saying you are Nikola are through?
Yes
Are you saying you are actually available?
Yes
And you still like girls?
Yes!
Oh carry on! Feed your fire, to take you higher
We’ll light you up like a live wire
Celebrate you, to elevate you
When you struggle to step, we’ll take a helping hand. Look out below
Here comes Don
And Don has brought some friends along
When you start things out of certainty
Then the ones you love
Are gonna set you free yeah!
Woo! Feed your fire, to take you higher
We’ll light you up like a live wire
Celebrate you, to elevate you,
When you struggle to step, we’ll take a helping hand If you hit the dust
Let me raise you up
When your bubble busts
Let me raise you up
If your glitter rusts
Let me raise you up (and up)
We’re the same
Charlie Boy
You and meJust be
Who you wanna be
Never let ’em tell you who you ought to be
Just be
With dignity
Celebrate yourself triumphantly
You’ll see
You’ll see
Just be
Just be Ladies, gentlemen
And those who have yet to make up their minds
As people all over the world clamor for kinky boots
It’s time for us to get back to work, but before we go
We would like to leave you with the Price and Simon secret to success
Alright, now we’ve all heard of the twelve step program, have we not?
Yes, but what you can do in twelve
I want you to know that we all can do in six now
And it goes like this One, pursue the truth (come one, come on)
Two, learn something new
Three, accept yourself and you’ll accept others too!
Four, let love shine
Five, let pride be your guide
Six, you change the world when you change your mind! Just be
Who you wanna be
Never let them tell you who you oughta be
Just be
With dignity
Celebrate your life triumphantlyYou’ll see (it’s beautiful)
You’ll see (it’s beautiful)
Just be (it’s beautiful)
Just be You’ll see (it’s beautiful)
You’ll see (it’s beautiful)
Just be (it’s beautiful)
Just be beautiful
…and it broke my heart not to get to see it.
Seeing Hamilton was a musical theater nerd dream that I have been waiting years for and when the reminder popped up on my calendar last night I almost cried. I know for some that seems dramatic and like a silly little item on a bucket list that I can do later, but to me it hurt and still stings. I haven’t been able to afford to go before this because it was impossible to get tickets for under $300 per cheap seat. So, when the tour was coming to LA I got up early to get tickets at a reasonable price and I DID. It was awesome. I was so excited.
I realize that there are other people in the world with a lot bigger disappointments but I learned in therapy that doesn’t invalidate my feelings so I am sharing them. I want you all to know that small disappointments are okay to express even if they seem small or insignificant compared to world events or someone else’s circumstances. Feel what you feel and right now I feel pissed and disappointed to have this dream delayed yet again.
Set My Own P(e)ace 