The Worst Anxiety Attack…

…I have EVER had.

Marty got away from his walk the other day. I got a call at work saying that and instantly my body seized – I felt the panic coming but it was more important to focus on finding him. After 25 minutes someone had found him. I got to my dog and wrapped him up in my arms with more relief then anything ever. But with the relief – and end of the adrenaline and panic – my anxiety took over my body. It had no other way out. Marty and I sat on a patch of grass, I wouldn’t let him out of my arms, and I burst into tears. All the anxiety of everything that could have happened and all the ways he could have been hurt took over. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t stop crying, I couldn’t really get up from that spot. I kept my arms around the dog and waited for it to pass. It is by far the WORST anxiety attack of my life – I hope it remains that way.

Marty is fine and happy as ever – the rest of us are a bit worse for the wear.

Who Knows What to Believe…

…and what not too.

The whole Corona Virus, panic purchasing, and seeing the ugly side of humanity in the US has me questioning what to trust and what not too.

Seems to me that mass buying toilet paper is not the answer to anyone’s problems here. I went the grocery store at 7:12 am to buy a diet coke and donut and it was already cleaned out. The nice lady at the register said she worked 12 hours yesterday because of all the demand. I know it’s an intimidating thing, the outfall of a pandemic, but does there need to be this much panic yet? Do we need 150 rolls of toilet paper and screw anyone who couldn’t get to the store in time (like the elderly or families with kids)? I understand providing for yourself and you family in scary times – a plan b is great – but let’s not forget there are other people in this world to take care of.

All the news, social media, etc are all corona virus, toilet paper all the time. I know it isn’t helping the situation but it makes it even harder to know what to believe and what not too. How panicked should I really be? How prepared should I really be? Even with everything the CDC released to help people prepare and be safe people are still freakin’ me out. No where in those instructions did it say wipe the stores out of TP and any paper product or deli meat. Is this all just paranoia or is it as bad as panic shoppers are making it seem? I have no idea because I am so confused with every new or different story out there.

Also, if I am buying things I think might not be available in the future I am personally hitting the produce section. If anything is gonna go away it’s healthy, fresh food. I know people want stuff that isn’t perishable but you can eat the fruits and veggies now…

Also – I had a bad day a few days ago and my dude went to the store and got me trash bags and paper towels (need both) while he was shopping. I truly think that was so freakin’ cute and romantic and I really appreciated it. Especially in the times and panic around paper products right now. If that ain’t love I don’t know what is?

What do you all think??

When Your Livelihood Depends On People Going Out…

…and there is a pandemic.

I KNOW I am not alone on this so I wanted to share some fears I am having with the current situation with Corona Virus. I work in an industry that depends on people leaving their homes and coming to a public space daily and for large events. The Corona Virus stuff (even if you feel it’s a media thing or a real thing or what) is a very real problem in my world right now. It’s causing all kinds of chaos – particularly in my brain. What if I can’t work? How will I pay bills? Do I need to move home to Phoenix? WTF am I gonna do in PHX when all public facing jobs wont be hiring? This is the type of panic running around in my brain at the moment. I know a lot of you out there are experiencing the same thing and are in the same situation. I just wanted you to know you aren’t alone. The best I can do is take it one day at a time and be grateful for everyday I get to go to work and make money to live. I am also grateful I bought toilet paper from Costco before this all went down ;).