Feeling Like I am In the Way…

…and wondering why that is.

Lately, I have been feeling like I am in the way most places I find myself in. That’s not many places considering the pandemic. I feel like I am in the way at my dudes house today. I am doing laundry, worked out this morning, and have had a pretty productive day. I sat down to watch TV and eat lunch, and he starts commenting on the show I am watching. It’s nothing bad really, but I start thinking ‘oh no, my watching TV is bothering him. Should I go do something else? She I be being more productive instead of watching Vikings? Am I making him uncomfortable?’ I do that a lot here. I turn the TV on super low so he wont judge what I am watching or I wont distract him from work or whatever he is doing. I feel in the way at my apartment for some similar reasons. I want to pick a show my roommate will like too and not annoy her with some of the crap I watch. Even at RIPPED today our class was made to feel in the way of a boot camp class. What is with me being in everyone’s way lately? Is it all in my head? Am I in my own way? All thoughts just rolling around in my noggin. So I will just share my thoughts with you and stay quiet and out of the way for as long as I can. I will try to work it out in my head and come up with an answer.

Me, My TV, and…

…how quarantine is changing it.

I have always really liked TV and movies. Shows and movies allow me escape my world for awhile and wind down at the end of the day. They provide social connections to those around you and a way to find common ground with someone you have trouble connecting with.

Lately, with the self-quarantine there hasn’t been much else to do but watch tv (yes I read and I have more books on the way). That is slowly fundamentally changing my relationship with TV to something I am sort of trapped doing. Yes people found a million other ways to spend their time (maybe better ones) but I am having a hard time doing that. My apartment is clean, I workout almost every day, and I still work a bit. I am just out of things to do (insert shrug here). I don’t want TV and movies to morph into something I do because there is no other option but right now that is the case.

I can’t wait until my new books get here.

What has COVID changed in your life? Anything you used to enjoy and relax with that is now starting to change and grate on you?

Or am I just worried I am lazy and I am watching too much TV? Possible.