Audible with Andrea…

…’The Flat Share’ by Beth O’Leary.

Fun Listen

I expected this book to be a quick, fun fluff listen. And for the most part it was. They do address emotional abuse and gas lighting in a relationship though, which I think is really important. Some folks think abuse is only physical, when the emotional abuse can leave just as much damage. Tiffy (this is the worst name every – why?) is looking to move out of her exe’s place and on with her life. She works in an industry where you don’t make much money (I can relate) so she needs something fast and cheap. Leon is looking for extra cash to support his brother in prison and works nights and stays weekends at his GF’s house, so he has Tiffy move in during the day and weekends for rent. Well his GF has her move in, because she had to make sure this person was less attractive then she was. I hate this detail – I get it but I hate it. Why should that matter and who are you to judge that? So Tiffy moves in and her and Leon become friends through notes and leftovers (and sharing a bed at separate times), after the initial shock wears off of really sharing a space so intimately. Eventually, we find out that Leon and his gf’s priorities don’t match up and they split. Tiffy is trying to make her ex, Justin, a thing of the past through distance and therapy. She realizes in therapy that the relationship was toxic and abusive. By this point it’s pretty clear that Tiffy and Leon will fall in love, which they do! But there are bumps of human error, lack of self worth and past trauma to get through first. It was a pleasant listen and I am not sorry I took a chance on it.

After Binging “Ted Lasso…”

I FUCKING LOVE IT (imagine that on Roy Kent’s voice).

If you haven’t watched it – stop reading now SPOILER ALERTS.

The season 2 Christmas Episode is my favorite – so good. They address mental health and the cheeriest person you know suffering from it. The person trying to hide it is the one suffering behind the scenes. Not saying Ted isn’t a positive person, I am saying watch those who put positivity so far out front that you can’t see what is behind it. Most of us do it. After finally facing and working with his anxiety and panic attacks a trusted friend tells the world for Ted to be ridiculed. 1) Can we move past a world where there is this stigma with mental health? It is like any other imbalance – if your arm was broken you would fix it. If your hormones are out of alignment you fix it. Mental health isn’t any different. Why is the world making seeking help with mental health a sign of weakness or something bad? It’s not. It’s brave. 2) I might hate Nate more then any other TV character ever. Seriously – fuck that asshole. Grow up. You have shit with your friends you talk it out. 3) LOVE Roy Kent. Love him.

Seriously though – good show. I highly recommend you give it a watch. I know late to the Ted Lasso bus but I am on board now. Can’t wait for season 3.

Cells Set to Mild Vibration…

…as a physical sign of anxiety.

We have talked about my physical signs of anxiety. Today it feels like my cells are all mildly vibrating. That really is the best way I can think to describe it. I don’t even know what I feel anxious about right now?! Fine one minute – mild vibrating cells the next. I always have a mild level of worry about certain things (I.E. am I doing a good job at work? etc) and maybe it is all that just manifesting. Maybe it’s the new Combat Cravings pill I took because my insecurities are getting the best of me about my weight. I have never taken it before so that could be it. I want to make Jameela Jamil proud but I just don’t wanna be fat either. It’s a toss up really. Who knows. Either way, it’s annoying.

That Just Stuck With Me…

And Just Like That I am writing about it.

I saw a preview for an episode of And Just Like That and Charlotte said something that really, really stuck with me. I can’t recall the exact quote but it was along the lines of “You know what. Women apologize to the whole world all day long, every day and I am sick of it. Sorry, not sorry.” It hit my like a truck. She’s right. Completely and utterly right. I spend my whole day apologizing for either perceived wrong doings or out of worry I have or will offend someone simply by existing as myself. Shit my job is 50% apologizing (most customer service is right?). It devalues apologies and their sincerity. Why is it women always apologizing? Men definitely don’t apologize for everything they do. Don’t get me wrong, if I have wronged you I will whole heartedly apologize; I am just done apologizing for all the rest of it. I am done apologizing for speaking my mind and relating my feelings. I am done apologizing for things that aren’t my fault. I am done apologizing for taking up space. I. am. done. apologizing. all. the. time.

It’s Been A Week…

…Yes it’s only Monday.

By a week I am including the last 4 days really. I got a booster shot. Yay! While it was still totally worth it to reduce my symptoms if I get COVID, those side effects were brutal. I had the body aches all over again but also a bout of crippling nausea to go with it. If you know me, you know there is nothing worse in my book then nausea. This was insane tho. One second I am making coffee and in the next second I am running for a bathroom to vomit. No like ‘oh my tummy hurts’ phase – 0 to 60 in a second. Luckily that only lasted about 20 minutes. The body aches persist through today tho. Not nearly as bad but uncomfortable for sure. I ended the night with about an hour of lightning headaches, which compared to the nausea weren’t so bad. Let me stress that I would do it all over again for the added protection.

Additionally I picked a fight with my dude. SO that was awesome. I really over achieved on that one.

Which brings us to today and the dentist. About 4 days ago I was minding my own business eating a mini Twix and ZING pain in my tooth. Guess whose getting her third root canal before 40?! That makes $2400+ into my mouth in the last year. Hell, in the last 2 months. Not fun. Kinda pissed. Luckily, I have a supportive helpful family.

SO yeah – that is why the last few days have not been awesome. How are you all doing with 2022 so far?!

“Divorced, Beheaded, Died…

…Divorced, Beheaded, Survived.”

I am newly into the soundtrack for Six The Musical. Who hasn’t been a bit fascinated by Henry the 8th and all of his wives? This is an interesting way of telling the story without Henry’s perspective. It is history with a flare of the modern. I am really enjoying it and recommend you give it a listen.

Six (musical) - Wikipedia

I Hate My Teeth…

…almost as much as I hate my past self.

I was indulging in my mini twix yesterday was my tooth zinged in pain. Not good. Ever since anything set’s it off. Hot, cold, sweet, cold air, room temperature water. Not a great sign. Got a dentist appt on Monday. Just hoping it’s a crown and not a root canal. Had my second root canal last month and it sucked way worse then my first one, don’t know why. Tooth placement maybe. Hurt my wallet too. $1200+ with dental insurance. Fuck me, I really don’t want to do this all again so soon. But if you leave dental work it only gets worse. So gonna suck it up and go and take the emotional and financial hit. I am so tired of going to the dentist. And I really like my dentist. That’s why I go to OC still instead of finding one in San Diego. Hard to find a dentist you can trust. Anywho, send good vibes to my wallet and mouth.

The Most Unholiday…

…feeling holiday ever.

Did anyone else just not feel like this holiday season felt very merry? It wasn’t bad or sad or anything of the like, it just didn’t feel like the holidays. It didn’t feel like Christmas or New Years. I didn’t get the same joy from watching my Christmas movies. I enjoyed them but it didn’t feel special with that holiday anticipation and sparkle. The whole thing just felt a but empty in comparison so other years. I have no idea why. Just did. New year, same me I suppose. I just feel weird about the whole thing. Can we get a do-over?

New Year, Same Me from TeeTurtle | Day of the Shirt

Lyrics to Live By…

…Holiday Edition!

“Merry Christmas Means I Love You”
(with Trisha Yearwood)

It’s that time of year again
That we spend with family and with friends
Good tidings we send
Of love without end
Amen

Lately we fight instead
On just how the tidings should be spread
We lightly tread
On words that are said or read


But if love is the gift that you’re giving
Whatever you call it is cool

No matter what your nation or god
So happy holidays, Hanukkah, Christmas, Kwanzaa, Yule
Season’s best, Feliz Navidad


Merry Christmas, when I say
Merry Christmas to you
Merry Christmas means I love you

So this year I’m hoping for
A gift that you can’t get from the store
To love and adore like never before and more

So maybe this holiday
When someone you don’t know comes your way
Whatever you say to honor the day is ok

‘Cause if love is the gift that you’re giving
Whatever you call it is cool
No matter what your nation or god
So happy holidays, Kwanzaa, Christmas, Hanukkah, Yule
Season’s best, Feliz Navidad

Merry Christmas, when I say
Merry Christmas to you
Merry Christmas means I love you

Merry Christmas, when I say
Merry Christmas to you
Merry Christmas means I love you

Garth Brooks and Tricia Yearwood - Christmas Together - Amazon.com Music

Role Models in the Public Eye…

…who should be our TIME Magazine person of the year – Dolly Parton.

Dolly Parton celebrates 50 years as a member of the Grand Ole Opry

Dolly Parton is the shit. There is no other way to say it.

Most recently, she donated $1,000,000 to research for the Moderna COVID vaccine. This alone qualifies her as a role model. Instead of spending it on something immature and stupid like oh I don’t know, space tourism. She doesn’t need any of that bullshit to prove she is cool. She just is!

I love her because she could not give two shits what people think about her. She wants plastic surgery -she has the right to have it and she looks great. She does what she wants and when she wants. She also seems incredibly kind and good hearted.

She founded the charity Imagination Library, which provides free books to preschoolers, in 1995. Just incase you need more examples of her philanthropy over the years check out this article.

https://www.yardbarker.com/entertainment/articles/a_timeline_of_dolly_partons_philanthropy/s1__28363436#slide_15

Maybe most importantly, she supports everyone being who they are and who they were born to be. She basically just wants us all to be happy. How could that not qualify her a role model?